April 1st



 April 1, 2021 – one of those where I question myself why am I in this profession. It’s Holy Thursday, a holiday and the roads are cleared off traffic. And yet I am on duty. Worse of all, it’s my mother’s birthday.

 

The night prior, I’ve been brooding over the thought that I have to go on duty. Maybe because I’m also guilty of not preparing for the new department. Pediatrics was my first department during clerkship so my knowledge probably is not at its best. But as I started my day, I prayed fervently that the day would go well. I told my Dad about how anxious I was and he told me that most of the times what we fear won’t occur. And with a heavy heart I left our house and went on duty.

 

The residents were really approachable and kind, and it gave me some sort of comfort that I somehow knew some of them. As I attended to one patient, as I was looking at the crying mother, I was reminded that I was once a pediatric patient and my parents had the same grief as the parent of my patient most especially my Mom, who is celebrating her birthday today.

 

My Mom doesn’t have very fond memories of her childhood but according to her, those shaped her to be a strong woman who is prayerful and faithful to God. She would regard herself as a slow learner and not smart, which is why she has always been proud of me who excelled academically. But on the contrary, I think my Mom is very smart and wise. She is very clever when it comes to finding ways in making things work and has given me very wise decisions. We may have arguments every now and then because both of us have strong personalities but at the end of the day I find myself agreeing to her, as I get enlightened with her point of view.

 

My Mom is very protective of us, her children. She won’t try to fight others when others try to quarrel her but when it comes to us, she wouldn’t back down no matter who the other party is. She may appear silent and meek like a lamb but she’d turn into tiger just to defend us her children.

 

My Mom has also shown us a great example when it comes to generosity to others and faithfulness to God. She taught us that some times God uses us to channel the blessings intended for other people as a test of generosity, and my Mom’s big heart in helping others is a testament to that. And whenever she extends her help to others, our family gets even more blessings.

 

Her main motivation in sending us to Med School is so that we can extend our help to others not only financially but also through our services, especially to those in need.

 

I  continued on with my day as I found the inspiration and motivation once more with a much more lighter feeling  and more vigor. I’ve found the answer to my question earlier today and thank God for giving me a wonderful Mother whom I love and loves me so much more. I drove home happily as I looked forward to getting home and being with my family as we celebrate Mama’s birthday.




 

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