Musings of a Butterfly

Few years ago, my date for a Christmas Party gifted    me with a pair high heels. Of course, I was delighted by the fact that the giver had thought of me. But unfortunately, he did not know I do not wear those that were more than 2-inches and definitely not those with cigarette heels. So sadly, I was not able to wear them to the party. To be precise, I never wore them out ever. I’ve always walked in a weird way. When I was younger I walked on my toes, I was teased quite a lot because of that. In an attempt to correct that, I made a conscious effort not to walk on my toes but then developed a new and probably a weirder way of walking - my weight now is placed on the lateral or the outer side of my foot, close to being club footed. I don’t get teased anymore, or rather, I don’t mind how people would think about how I walk. Sad thing though is that I can’t wear high heels. I love high heels. I don’t say it much, but I like looking at them. I find them pretty and women who walk confidently

That has been one of our mantras for the 40 days that our batch was given to have our intensive review for the Physicians’ Licensure Exam. Due to the pandemic, our batch didn’t have our graduation that we and our families looked forward to. We started our Post Graduate Internship, half of it was done online and the other half was on limited clinical exposure. And since we started late, we ended late too. We had hoped that our PLE would be postponed for one month to October instead of the usual September. To our dismay, PLE 2021 pushed through in September. So instead of at 60 days for review, we only had 40 days of review including the days for us to process our exam application - quite hectic, right? But that’s  not all. The usual PLE review was done online which definitely tested our discipline and perseverance. On my end, I also had an additional struggle - my Lupus. For the past year, I’ve been trying to get off my steroids but I have not been successful since. I was so close to fi